Our time together part 1

"Kev." a soft voice called. Kevin groaned and rolled over. "Kev." the voice called again. Kevin continued to ignore it the best he could.
"go away." Kevin muttered. he paused that wasn't Gwens voice. he rolled over and looked. "wa-wait, Ben? how the heck did you get in my house?" Kevin ask.
"climbed over the back fence and jimmied a window open." Ben shrugged. Kevin stared at him.
"you learned how to break into someone's house? where?" Kevin ask. Ben shrugged.
"watched you." Ben replied. Kevin was surprised.
"you watched me?" Kevin ask. Ben nodded.
"I've learned a lot from you." Ben smiles. he holds up a pair of key's. "and I know it's your birthday. s-so I stole a motorcycle for us to take on a joy ride." Ben smirks. Kevin raised an eye brow.
"you stole a motorcycle and broke into my house at 1 A.M. for a joy ride?" Kevin ask. Ben nodded. Kevin stared at him a moment, then shrugged. "alright! let's go!" Kevni smirked, jumping out of bed. Ben grinned as they ran down the stairs.
"you drive." Ben said tossing him the key's. Kevin's grin grew wider and he jumped on the front of the bike starting it up. Ben climbed on the back, wrapping his arms around his older friends waist.
"ready?" Kevin ask. Ben pressed his face against his back, and nodded at him.
"yeah." Ben said. Kevin took off.
"so why are you suddenly so bad?" Kevin calls over the engine. Ben tightened his hold.
"it's your birthday. I remembered we did this once when we were younger, like ten!" Ben replied.
"something is off tonight!" Kevin said. "why would you break laws for my birthday!? just my birthday!?" Kevin calls. Ben got silent and Kevin waited patiently for a few moments for an answer, before pulling over and turning the bike off. "Ben? are you okay?" Kevin ask curiously. Ben sighed.
"Kev, I.... I-I'm dying." Ben said softly. Kevin froze for a moment.
"that was a stupid joke asshole." Kevin huffed.
"it's not a joke. I have six months at most. they've been treating me for cancer and the radiation has finally gotten to me. I wanted to hang with you some before I got too sick...." Ben explained quietly. Kevin looked at him.
"if... if you're really dying... I have something I need to tell you." Kevin sighed. Ben looked back up in time for a pair of lips to come crashing against his own. he sat frozen in his seat until Kevin pulled back.
"K-Ke-Kevin?" Ben ask blushing darkly.
"sorry I had to." Kevin murmured. "I-I've wanted to since we were kids." Kevin shrugged. Ben stood off the bike and glared at him.
"THAT'S SO UNFAIR YOU ASSHOLE!" Ben screamed at him angrily. Kevin was shocked and stared at him. "I've been waiting for you to get the balls to do that for fucking years! now I'm dying and you fucking kiss me!?" Ben screamed, tearfully. Kevin stepped off the bike and went to say something but Ben once again started yelling. "do you know how unfair that is to both of us?!" Ben glared. Kevin blinked at him.
"yo-you knew.... you knew I loved you?" Kevin ask.
"yes! Gwen told me! but I know how you are so I fucking waited for you! I waited and waited! and now you fucking tell me!?" Ben glared. Kevin pulled Ben to his chest.
"I'm sorry." Kevin sighed, kissing Ben's head gently. "I really am okay? but I know now that you're dying and I couldn't just let you die.... now without at least getting rejected." Kevin said. Ben got quiet, cuddled up to his chest. "Ben you are all I have.... I didn't want to lose you, but I'm going to anyway... thats why I told you. I was afraid... I was afraid to lose our friendship. not telling you, so I wouldn't lose my whole world, is the hardest thing I've ever done, and I'm sorry." Kevin explained. Ben wrapped his arms tightly around Kevins upper torso, burying his face in his chest. Bens tears soaked parts of Kevins t-shirt.
"I forgive you. I'm dying, why hold a grudge?" Ben murmured. Kevin leaned down, pulling Ben into another soft kiss, this time longer knowing he wouldn't be pushed away.
"I love you Ben. a lot." Kevin said, panting softly. Ben smiled slightly, feeling the ravens arms wrap around him in a small hug.
"love you too Kev." Ben murmured. Kevin held him a moment, before letting him go and turning back to the motorcycle.
"c'mon Benji." Kevin said, putting a little affection behind the usually annoying nickname. Ben smiled slightly and climbed back on behind him. he wrapped his arms around Kevins waist tightly. Kevin smirked, putting one of his hands over Bens hands. Kevin wasn't normally lovey dovey, but he wasn't completely sure how much longer Ben would live and he wanted to show Ben all the affection he could. Ben pressed his face into Kevins back smiling slightly. Kevin smiled, popping a wheelie. Ben laughed, holding tighter to his waist.
"Ke-K-Kevin! where are we going?!" Ben ask.
"some where I've wanted to take you for a long time!" Kevin replied. Ben nodded against his back. they drove for a little while, before Ben started feeling a familiar dizziness.
"K-Kev! pu-pul-pull over!" Ben called. Kevin, confused, pulled over. Ben jumpd off as quick as he could, running to the tree line. Kevin followed worriedly.
"Ben?" Kevin ask. Ben didn't answer, simply vomited into the grass. Kevin stepped back and ran down the road, to a near by store to get him a bottle of water. Ben sank into the grass, on his hands and knee's, continuing to vomite. Kevin ran back over to him, kneeling beside Ben. when Ben finally stopped, Kevin pulled him backwards gently to lay against his side, giving the brunett the bottle of water. "Ben, are you okay?" Kevin ask. Ben slowly sipped the water, giving a slight nod.
"y-yeah. s-sor-sorry. i-it ha-hap-happens..." Ben sighed. Kevin nods.
"I know." Kevin replied. "are you okay to move?" Kevin ask. Ben nodded, starting to get up. Kevin scooped him up gently, bridle style. Ben cuddled to him tiredly.
"th-than-thanks Kev...." Ben murmured.
"anytime Benji." Kevin replied. he climed back onto the motorcycle, Ben craddled in his lap. "hold on okay? I'll get us back to your place." Kevin said. Ben nodded shakily, holding as tightly as he could to Kevin. Kevin took off for Bens house quickly.
*Bens house*
Bens house was a disaster of meds, trash, clothes, and other things.
"nice cleaning." Kevin teased.
"the meds and the treatment take up most my time. I'm exhausted all the time. half the time I can't get out of bed." Ben muttered. Kevin laid him on the couch gently.
"lay here, I'll clean up a little. have you told Gwen?" Kevin ask. Ben nodded his head.
"ye-yeah. she didn't care." Ben muttered. Kevin started cleaning, also calling Gwen. Ben laid on the couch, listening to Kevin yell at his cousin. Kevin, afer about an hour, finally hung up with Gwen and looked around the house. it wasn't cleaned completely, but it was cleaner then before. he smiled and went to check on Ben, who was asleep on the couch. he picked Ben up gently, carrying him up stairs to his bedroom.
"Ke-Kev-Kevin?" Ben yawns softly. Kevin looked down.
"shhhhh, I'm taking you to your room. go back to sleep." Kevin soothed.
"stay with me?" Ben ask.
"not going anywhere Ben." Kevin replied. Ben nods cuddling to his chest.
"okay." Ben yawned softly. Kevin laid him gently on the bed, then laid beside him. Ben cuddled to him.
"your room is a complete mess." Kevin chuckled.
"m'sorry Kev. I haven't been up here in three weeks." Ben said quietly.
"I'll clean it later." Kevin replied.
"Kev?" Ben ask softly.
"yes?" Kevin ask.
"I'm scared." Ben said. Kevin looked at him.
"of what?" Kevin ask.
"dying." Ben stated. Kevin pulled him closer to his chest.
"don't think about it." Kevin said softly. "don't think about that right now Benji. think about the stuff we'll do together and the fun we'll have later okay?" Kevin said.
"I can't do anything. took me forever to get the energy to do that stuff for you. I-I can't walk up stairs. Kev, the past two months I've been living on my couch with a few gallons of water and packages of crackers 'cause I can't stand long enough to make real food and I can't always get up off the couch so take out and fast food isn't an option." Ben explained.
"look you lay here I'll go make you some real food, and when you wake up my car and I will be ready and waiting to go out and do whatever you want to do." Kevin says.
"bu-but I can't-" Ben started.
"I'll carry you." Kevin said.
"but I'm-" Ben tried.
"tired. I know. we'll go later when you wake up." Kevin replied.
"but it's your-" Ben started.
"there's nothing better I can think of then spending my birthday with you." Kevin murmured. Ben stared at him.
"I wanted to celebrate your birthday." Ben said finally.
"and we will." Kevin replied. he stood and headed downstairs to make Ben something to eat. Ben watched him go.
"K-Kev, wait!" Ben called as Kevin started down the stairs. Kevin paused and looked at him. "thank you." Ben said. Kevin smiled at him.
"anytime Benji." Kevin smiled. he continued downstairs to the kitchen. when Kevin came back up, he helped Ben sit up. "here, I figured you're tired and might need help." Kevin said. Ben stared at him a moment, then burst into tears, burying his face in his knee's as he sobbed. Kevin sat the bowl down quickly, sitting and pulling Ben to him. "hey, hey whats wrong?" Kevin ask.
"wh-why? why do you care?" Ben cried. Kevin held him tightly. "dying is so much easier when no one cares!" Ben sobbed. Kevin was shocked.
"don't cry please Ben. it's okay." Kevin tried to sooth him. "don't cry. please, please don't cry. I... I don't know how to deal with emotions." Kevin said, holding him. Ben sobbed against him. Kevin laid back, pulling Ben on top of him. the younger laid on his chest, clinging to him as he sobbed. Kevin continued to try and sooth him, for he didn't know how long. eventually Bens sobs calmed into sniffles then stopped all together. Kevin didn't need to look down to know Ben was asleep. he pulled the blanket up and over them. he rolled onto his side, pulling Ben with him gently. Kevin kissed his head gently. "I love you Benji." Kevin whispered softly. he cuddled Ben and fell asleep.
*a few hours later*
Ben slowly opened his eye's and rubbed them gently. a deep snore had Ben jerking up confusedly. he relaxed rememberig what had happened and cuddle to Kevin, nuzzling his chest gently. Kevin yawned softly. Ben smiled feeling fingers comb through his hair.
"did I wake you?" Ben ask.
"nah, you stopped me from dozing back off." Kevin chuckled.
"you were snoring." Ben muttered.
"I don't snore." Kevin huffed. Ben gave a small laugh and cuddled to him.
"hey Kev?" Ben ask.
"yeah Benji?" Kevin ask.
"can you help me get a shower? please? yo-you don't have too, but I can't do it without help...." Ben said. Kevin smiled.
"sure. I needed a shower anyway." Kevin smiles. he got Ben some clothes and got up. he helped Ben strip down in the bathroom, then stripped himself. Kevin adjusted the water while Ben finished pulling his pants off.
"Ke-Kev?" Ben ask.
"hmm?" Kevin ask fixing the water.
"I.... I can't step up high enough to get in..." Ben said. Kevin nodded and picked him up, setting him in the tub. "I'm so glad you're strong enough to pick me up." Ben muttered. Kevin snickered.
"you weigh like a hundred pounds, one-fifty at most, you are nothing compared to some of the things I pick up." Kevin chuckled. Ben smiled, giving a small laugh. "do I need to hold you up?" Kevin ask, completely serious.
"ma-maybe if we stand around too long..." Ben sighed. Kevin nods, wrapping an arm under Bens and around his chest, to hold him up. "thanks Kev." Ben said softly. Kevin nodded, giving him a small squeeze in a hug like manner. they showered, making some small talk about what they wanted to do today. they were almost done, when Ben's knee's gave out Kevins arm tightened quickly around him. Ben yelped softly and let out a breath.
"Ben, are you okay?" Kevin ask. Ben nodded slightly.
"y-yeah. th-thanks." Ben muttered. Kevin nodded.
"anytime. what happened?" Kevin ask.
"m-my knee's gave in...." Ben said. "s-sorry." Ben added.